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11 days until St. Patrick's Day. Just wanted to point that out. Moving on.
I do feel like I've turned my blog into it's own Insecure Writer's mini-Blog. Those seem to have been my posts as of late. Bleh.
Adam has been great, as always, trying to get my procrastinating and paranoid ass in gear and get back to writing, even completing, my ugly-first-draft of my WIP. Goal for March was to do an hour of writing every day.
Ask me how many hours I've put in since the first. Go ahead, ask me.
Nothing.
Maybe one or two days I literally did not have any time whatsoever to cram in an hour of writing. The rest of the past 120 hours of this month I've struggled.
The moment I start to think about writing, I panic. Not sweaty palms and nail biting panic, anxiety panic. I do that a lot (in case you haven't caught that yet from reading my posts here).
Do I finish my WIP where I left off? Wait, I don't know what happens next, I never planned that far. Okay, so plan from here forward. But hang on, I've been going back thinking about the plot so far and there's some holes I need to fix. This one other way sounds better. Damnit, I have to move forward in the story so I can show that so-and-so isn't really dead. Shit, Adam just mentioned about this comic that has a 2-sentence length similar plot to my WIP. Someone's done it. Simpsons did it! Fuck it, I'll just start over. But wait I've got 91 pages typed. Ugh, I'll have to undo so much.
You people wonder why I drink!!
......11 days until St. Patrick's Day......
Make some notes of what needs to be fixed, notes of where you want to go next, and then just keep plowing forward. I bet you can do it better than the Simpsons.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Alex! Adam has also promised to upgrade from support/check-in to "ride your ass to make sure you've written today." The procrastination is strong in me. ;)
DeleteI had a similar goal for March and haven't exactly made it so far! I am a terrible procrastinator so I can relate. Just keep thinking about St. Patty's Day. :)
ReplyDeleteGood luck getting over this spell... I can understand it. I forced myself through NaNo two years ago and can't even muster the courage to crack open the monster I created.
ReplyDeleteMaybe start with something small... a short fiction or something... a drabble. Just something to put a bit of the confidence back in. Best of luck!
Alex Hurst, fantasy author in Japan, participating in Blogging A-Z April Challenge.
Goals can be hard to achieve but don't beat yourself up about it. I often find that even when I have low word output or no word output that given time I will suddenly get a mad dash where the words just seem to fly. I hope this happens for you too. For now sending some virtual hugs in the hope that they will make you smile if nothing else. (((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))
ReplyDeleteUgh, it's been a tough week, writing-wise, for me, too. It'll get better, I do promise. Maybe don't even try to work on your MS - just free write. Whatever is in your brain, without judgement or editing. Let it be fun. That always helps me.
ReplyDeleteI'm stuck in my MS too. All the best with yours-- you can do this!!
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